For years I’ve awakened to the soft neon glow of this particular alarm clock.
This photo gives you a personal, yet very misleading look into my life. It says a lot about my daily sleeping habits. You see, some days this is when I wake up, while on other days this is when I go to sleep. There are many causes for such a sporadic pattern of sleep, mostly work, which I’m certain other creatives individuals can absolutely relate to.
Having an active mind full of ideas can keep you up all night, cause you to wake up early in the morning, or disrupt you at any moment in between. It’s this same creative surge that can fuel your passion, while also draining your spirit. Being an artist of any kind is never easy. It can be a constant battle within yourself to outwardly express what you see and feel inside. Creativity can cause you to become a habitual dreamer incapable of manifesting ideas into reality, living totally inside your own mind. Or it can cause you insomnia from constantly trying to artistically execute your thoughts in your physical life. This never ending traffic of mind games is mentally exhausting! If you’re like me, and have been battling your entire life, you already know that eventually it will catch up to you physically.
This is where I currently stand. Growing older and finding it increasingly difficult to find ways to win these internal battles. To find a steady balance. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE being an artist! I love being someone who can see things that others cannot. I love having the ability to create something out of nothing. Or being able to take something that exists and provide a unique re-interpetation from my own perspective. I truly believe it is a gift from God. I just wish that this gift didn’t have to come with burden of this curse wrapped around it.
Out in the heat of the wilderness all day yesterday. Out in the cold and rain all day today trying to find some peace… I use my camera to help me get through tough times. Thankful I have an outlet.
The weather has started to warm up and I like most people have been out enjoying it. I spent last weekend with my family at the local marina meeting new people and watching all the families playing in the sun. One of the more fun moments of that outing was when the families, and more specifically the children were feeding the birds. For some it was their first time both feeding and being so close to all the different birds. The reactions were priceless! One particular moment stood out, and that’s what I’ve decided to shared today. A very friendly and energetic grandmother was teaching her equally excited granddaughter how to feed the ducks. It was a touching site to just watch the two of them interact with one another. As a photographer I live to capture these moments but, as a person I live to experience them as well.
I’ve been going out in the cold winter rain of the past few days trying to stay busy. Funny this is, I never really view rainy days as disappointments. The truth is, I actually like them sometimes. I’ve felt this way since I was a small child. I look at it as a way to shoot outside from a totally different perspective. Rainy days have their own look which can be very interesting. For instance, certain wildlife will only appear in these conditions and trying to capture shots of them can be a fun adventure within itself. Rainy days can provide you with the challenge of searching for something interesting to shoot, or in this case, shooting something simple and familiar in an interesting way. I guess I’m just the type that will find any excuse to be out with my camera anyway? But hey, it keeps me sane! 😉 Whatever works, right?
Good frosty morning everyone!!!
A quick trip to the park as the sun started to set produced this beautiful reflection on the lake.
Various findings around the park during my last solo outing. I do believe that all of these were shot in color but, I find that using black & white here to be much more interesting.