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Senior Prom/Learning To Let Go

I remember the day you were born. That day was my very first lesson in learning how to let you go. Having to leave you at the hospital to go to work that night was hardest thing I’ve ever done. I wanted to stay with you, to hold you, look at you, let you become familiar with me. My first child. But I had to let you go…

When you finally came home, each night that I left for work I would be so sad driving away, because I didn’t want to let you go.

When we put you in daycare, it was the first time that I had to leave you alone with strangers, and everyday that I walked out of that door I had to let you go. I would stand in the window and watch you until I didn’t have any time left to give.

Your first day of school, I was so happy for you, but so nervous. When the bus came to pick you up and carry you off I cried like a baby. I stood in the street and watched as the bus became smaller and smaller, until it eventually disappeared. There was nothing I could do, I knew I had to let you go.

Since then, there have been so many moments, so many times where the only thing that I could do was stand by and let you go. It never gets any easier.

Now here we are already, senior prom! Look at you. You’re so beautiful! You look just like your mother…

Once again I have to see you off and let you go. I’m so proud, but so hurt.

I know soon you’ll go off to school, or move out on your own and I’ll have to set you free.

Eventually you’ll meet someone, fall in love, get married, and that’s when I’ll lose you. That’s when my heart will truly break…that’s when I’ll really have to let you go.

I always knew these days would come, yet I’m still not prepared.

I love you so much!!!

You will always be my baby, sometimes I wish you could stay that way.

Why do I have to let you go?…

I never want to let you go!

But I know I must…


Happy 15th Birthday Nas!!!

It’s mind blowing how fast time flies right before our eyes. I can recall everything I was doing at 15 as if it literally happened yesterday, and now I have a fifteen year old son…it’s crazy! It’s almost like watching myself growing up again in another body! Anyway, I’d like to wish my son a very sincere Happy Birthday today! I love you Prince!!!

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Happy Birthday To Me!!!

Yesterday was my birthday and my family made sure that I thoroughly enjoyed myself. So today I’d like to thank them as well as ALL of the wonderful people that took time out of their busy day to wish me a Happy Birthday! Thank you Terri, Safiyyah, Rahzjon, Renae, and Jocelyn. I love you all!!! Thank you to everyone! I’m truly blessed and humbled.

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Happy Birthday Antonio!!!

I’d like to wish my youngest brother and partner in crime a very Happy Birthday today!!! I hope you enjoy yourself and that we can celebrate together real soon. I love you man!!!

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For Grandpa

I Can’t Begin To Tell You How Difficult And Surreal It Is To See A Man That Signified Strength And Toughness My Entire Life Reduced To Such A Helpless State. However, The Amazing Revelation Is, Despite His Crippling Illness He Symbolizes Strength And Toughness Even More So Now! Fighting Parkinson’s Disease For 32 Years Is A Heroic Triumph. Although I’m Sadden That My Grandfather Has Been Stricken With This Affliction My Faith Is Renewed In Bearing Witness To His Warrior’s Spirit. He Is A True Fighter. I Can Only Hope That Maybe Some Of His Strength And Resiliency Lives Inside Of Me. You Are My Inspiration! I Proudly Carry Your Name. I Love You Old Man!!!

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Happy Birthday To My Prince!!!

I’d like to wish my son a very happy 14th birthday! I love you with all my heart!!!!

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Happy Birthday Ana!!!

Happy Birthday to my beautiful and talented niece!!! I love you!!!

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