I remember the day you were born. That day was my very first lesson in learning how to let you go. Having to leave you at the hospital to go to work that night was hardest thing I’ve ever done. I wanted to stay with you, to hold you, look at you, let you become familiar with me. My first child. But I had to let you go…
When you finally came home, each night that I left for work I would be so sad driving away, because I didn’t want to let you go.
When we put you in daycare, it was the first time that I had to leave you alone with strangers, and everyday that I walked out of that door I had to let you go. I would stand in the window and watch you until I didn’t have any time left to give.
Your first day of school, I was so happy for you, but so nervous. When the bus came to pick you up and carry you off I cried like a baby. I stood in the street and watched as the bus became smaller and smaller, until it eventually disappeared. There was nothing I could do, I knew I had to let you go.
Since then, there have been so many moments, so many times where the only thing that I could do was stand by and let you go. It never gets any easier.
Now here we are already, senior prom! Look at you. You’re so beautiful! You look just like your mother…
Once again I have to see you off and let you go. I’m so proud, but so hurt.
I know soon you’ll go off to school, or move out on your own and I’ll have to set you free.
Eventually you’ll meet someone, fall in love, get married, and that’s when I’ll lose you. That’s when my heart will truly break…that’s when I’ll really have to let you go.
I always knew these days would come, yet I’m still not prepared.
I love you so much!!!
You will always be my baby, sometimes I wish you could stay that way.
Why do I have to let you go?…
I never want to let you go!
But I know I must…
It’s mind blowing how fast time flies right before our eyes. I can recall everything I was doing at 15 as if it literally happened yesterday, and now I have a fifteen year old son…it’s crazy! It’s almost like watching myself growing up again in another body! Anyway, I’d like to wish my son a very sincere Happy Birthday today! I love you Prince!!!
After re-reviewing my Halloween folder I decided to add a few more images that I actually like that I completely overlooked the first time around. Seeing this new set of images made me really wish I had tried harder to take more shots that day. Now I have to wait until next year…
(Please click on each image for a larger view)
I’d like to wish my youngest brother and partner in crime a very Happy Birthday today!!! I hope you enjoy yourself and that we can celebrate together real soon. I love you man!!!
I Can’t Begin To Tell You How Difficult And Surreal It Is To See A Man That Signified Strength And Toughness My Entire Life Reduced To Such A Helpless State. However, The Amazing Revelation Is, Despite His Crippling Illness He Symbolizes Strength And Toughness Even More So Now! Fighting Parkinson’s Disease For 32 Years Is A Heroic Triumph. Although I’m Sadden That My Grandfather Has Been Stricken With This Affliction My Faith Is Renewed In Bearing Witness To His Warrior’s Spirit. He Is A True Fighter. I Can Only Hope That Maybe Some Of His Strength And Resiliency Lives Inside Of Me. You Are My Inspiration! I Proudly Carry Your Name. I Love You Old Man!!!
Spring Fling April 2015 has come and gone yet again. This time it lasted for 2 long weeks. My goal was to attend as many times as I could during both day and night so I could shoot multiple times to get many different looks. Since I didn’t find out until the last minute that the event was going to last that long, I wasn’t able to go back as often as I wanted to. These photos represent my first day there which happened to be my most successful day.
My family and I arrived early on day one before all of the crowds poured in. I thought long and hard about whether or not I wanted to come back with all the people that usually attend but, I decided that at some point I would. Unfortunately at some point never came! I was very disappointed because there were plenty of photographic opportunities for me this year but I blew it. I am however very grateful for the shots that I was able to get this time. Editing these shots is an entirely different story… Working on the edits was very difficult this time. I wanted to try something different, a specific look I had in mind. It’s something that I’ve been longing to do for a while but never willing to actually sit down and do. I wanted each shot to have bold, bright colors so I edited every single shot in this gallery individually. This was not a batch edit. I NEVER edit this many photos individually! Whenever I post lots of pictures in a gallery I usually post them straight out of the camera with no adjustments. The reason why is because it’s far too time consuming and I feel like batch edits can’t possibly give each shot the special attention it deserves. This time each shot has it’s own signature color profile. It was very tiring but I’m happy I did it. Now I know I have the patience to actually sit down and do it and I feel that it will only help me later on during my post processing sessions.
You know, as photographers we all shoot for many different reasons. Most of us shoot for the love of it. We also shoot for ourselves first and foremost but, we hope that when we do release photos to our viewing audience they understand all the hard work we put into it. Sometimes our satisfaction comes from just knowing others “get it”. This was a hard one y’all! I hope someone out there “gets it”. As always I’d like to thank each and every person that stops by my blog and enjoys my work. Your views, messages, and support are greatly appreciated!!!
I’d like to wish my son a very happy 14th birthday! I love you with all my heart!!!!