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Born Again?

By some miracle of God, my wonderful cousin Latasha has blessed our family with a new version of my Mother Marilyn and my Aunt Theresa, both of whom are unfortunately no longer with us. Not only were they sisters, but they were also best friends. Now my little cousins are mirror images of them. Ever since my Aunt Tina made me aware of this observation I can’t stop thinking about it. I’m completely amazed by their similarities! It’s truly unbelievable how genetics work. I’m so happy I was able to photograph them both together. I guess in a way it’s bittersweet? But no matter what, I love these 2 angels with all of my heart!!!


Rediscovering Fun Part 2

I really enjoyed photographing different parts of California with my phone stylized in infrared. I had so much fun I decided to share a few more of my favorites here in portrait orientation. Photography is hard work, but we must always remember to make time to enjoy ourselves. Never stop having fun!


Happy 10 Years Of Blogging To Me!!!

Wow!!! 10 years?! This is really hard to believe…

But, 10 years ago today I apprehensively started my journey into blogging. I never would have imagined that time would go by so quickly. I’m the first to admit, I’m not the best blogger in the world, and lately I haven’t been as consistent, but I’m very proud of myself for making it this far. In 10 years time I’ve obviously had my share of ups and downs, and I’ve moved to different parts of the country a few times. During this time I’ve had the pleasure of meeting a lot of very interesting people along the way. Til this very day, one of the most interesting people of all STILL happens to be the person I started this blog with, baby Adayah.

Of course she’s not a baby anymore, but I’m sure her Mom would totally agree that we both wish she still was! She was so full of personality even as a little baby. Her facial expressions were absolutely priceless! So I’d like to send a huge thank you to Natasha McBride for allowing me to not only photograph, but get to know both her and her child, Adayah. They’ve become more like family over the years, and I’m grateful for every single moment that I spent with each of them. Thank you!

I’d also like to thank each and every person that has visited my page, liked my photos, or left me a comment. I greatly appreciate your support! And trust me, your encouragement has really helped me to get through some very difficult times.

Lastly, I’d like to say thank you to WordPress. Without this platform I don’t know where I would’ve ended up trying to share my work and thoughts? So, thank you!

Here’s to 10 years! Time to celebrate this accomplishment!!!


Rediscovering Fun

After losing my mother last month I decided to take a break from creating. During my down time I thought a lot about how serious we take ourselves in the pursuit of money and a career. Getting back into the routine of making photos again I wanted to take it easy, and just try to have fun again. Reminding myself that not every photo has to be a “masterpiece” or your “best” work. Sometimes we should do things just for fun. Remember why you chose your line of work in the first place. Not for the sake of having another job, not for awards, or likes and follows, but simply for the enjoyment of taking photos. To create for your own satisfaction. I haven’t even been taking my big, “serious” work cameras out. I’ve just been taking snapshots with my point & shoot, or mostly using my iPhone. Truth is, when it comes to posting on social media, most people don’t even recognize the difference anyway.

I’ve always been in love with Kodak’s Areochrome infrared film. But since it’s been discontinued for some years now, I’ve never had the pleasure of actually using any. Thanks to the advancement of digital technology we are now able to replicate a similar look in our photos. Of course it’s not exactly the same, or better, it’s more like a simplified approximation of the original.

Lately I’ve also been trying to spend as much time as possible in tranquil, peaceful, environments. Trying to employ different methods to lessen my stress at all costs. Enjoying the simple pleasures in life, not taking small blessings for granted. I was born under the water sign, so water has always had a calming effect on my spirit. The cool breeze and crashing waves help to soothe my nerves. Spending time near water has been extremely therapeutic for my healing process. From the very beginning photography has been medicinal, so combining the two has been beneficial to both my life and art. Creating for fun has brought a degree of joy back into my life.

Being an artist that loves experimenting with different techniques made choosing infrared for this series very easy. Although I wish it were the real thing, I am content with the results I’ve been getting digitally. So much so, I’m even considering making a more significant project, using infrared as my primary color grading method. But, that’s a decision to be determined at a later date.

For now, I’m not putting any pressure on myself. There’s no timetable for anything. The goal is to use my art to help me heal, however long that may take? Whatever work is created during that time will be whatever it is. And although I’ll probably share this work publicly, it’s not for the public. It’s for me and me only. I’m not interested in opinions, or commentary, I just want to have fun. What’s the point of spending all this money on equipment and working hard for years if you never get to enjoy yourself? That’s one of the biggest issues currently plaguing the artistic industry. Unfortunately, so much of the joy, fun, and love is totally missing from the different art forms now. Music, movies, photography…it’s truly very sad to witness.

So I have to do my best to bring the fun back for myself. I can only hope that others will routinely re-examine themselves and follow in my footsteps. It’s very easy to lose your happiness, thereby becoming lost in the serious business of work. Sometimes questioning your purpose, and even falling into deep depressions. But we all have to remain protective of our joy. It is sacred. The undeniable fact is, we don’t have to create to impress others, or to be the greatest ever…but we must remember to constantly try to have fun. That will ALWAYS be an important aspect of our lives!

Please remind yourself to actively enjoy the process of creativity.


Birthday Tribute For My Mom

I know some of you have seen this pic before, I’ve posted it a few times in the past. But this one is very different from the rest. This is one of the few photos I have of my Mother and I together. This was her favorite photo. It’s one of my most cherished photos. I took my old, almost completely destroyed copy, and totally restored it. Sadly, my Mother passed away on last Wednesday before I could show her. So I’m dedicating my birthday today to honor her memory. 

Mom, I thank you for giving me life, and for going out of your way to raise me right. This one is for you!

I love you forever!!!! ❤


Happy 22nd Birthday!!!

It’s truly perplexing my mind that my baby is now a 22 year old young woman. How did we get this far so fast?

I just want to let you know how much I love and appreciate you. As we celebrate you today, please forgive me if I’m overbearing and emotional. Someday you’ll have kids of your own and you’ll fully understand what’s going on inside of me right now. It’s an incredible honor and pleasure to have you as a daughter. I thank God for you!!!

Now, let’s get this party started!!!!


Real Life Painting

Hello everyone! I just thought I’d share a photo that I recently made.

I was sitting in the passenger’s seat in mid conversation, when I noticed this scene unfold. I quickly raised my camera and snapped a few frames of this colorful moment. I found this scene interesting because, it reminded me of a painting, but in real life. I wish that I could’ve taken a few more frames, or even gotten out of the car to compose the shot better, but that’s how it goes sometimes. We only have a split second to capture a moment before it’s gone, and we can’t always compose the “perfect” shot. I will add, that I am happy with the overall color coordination throughout the photo.

As always, it makes me want to pay closer attention to everything going on around me. To be faster at capturing fleeting moments as soon as I’m aware of them. And that’s the beauty of photography! You keep trying to improve every day, every time you pick up your camera. That’s part of the joy and pain of this profession. I love it! I’ll use this experience as motivation to try harder.

Until next time. Stay tuned…


Happy 20th Birthday!!!

He’s all grown up now! It’s truly amazing how fast time flies by us, even when you think you’re totally paying close attention. In any case, Happy 20th to my son, Nas. I love you so much!!! One more year until the BIG celebration 😉


Head In The Clouds

Some people use to ask me why I take so many pictures of clouds? My reply is always the same, “because I always walk with my head held high”

Here are a few of my favorite recent photos of the sky and clouds under various weather conditions. All of the photos were taken while in motion with my small travel camera out of the passenger’s seat window.


New Year/2020 Part 2?

I hope that everyone is doing better so far? It’s hard to believe that we’re already at the end of the first month of this new year.

Personally, I’ve been spending my time editing photos, reading books, watching movies, or chilling with family. I’ve also had the great fortune of taking some road trips to combat the cabin fever of being trapped in the house. I’m definitely thankful for the mild weather, so I try to get out, masked up of course, and enjoy the cool breeze.

I’ve accumulated a a nice collection of photos taken from the passengers seat on our many excursions. This beautiful photo is one of most recent that I’m really pleased with. The soft colors painted in the sky provides a relaxing contrast to the rough desert landscape.

This is the type of work that I’ll focus on for the time being, until I can start making portraits again. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do! Continue staying safe, try to have fun, and enjoy your loved ones!


2020

Watching the sun set on this dreadful year, clinging to the hope that the new year will bring about some semblance of positivity.


Around Nevada Part 2

As we approach the final days of this dreaded year, I’ve decided to reflect on some of the few moments of happiness that I’ve experienced this month. I realize that I haven’t truly blogged much this year, and the truth is, I just haven’t been able to translate my thoughts and feelings into written words. This year has been that debilitating for me. Anytime I thought about sitting down to write I just couldn’t bring myself to do it.

So here I am now trying to end the year with some form of positivity. Posting some of my favorite memories from some of the trips that I was fortunate enough to take. To share some of the moments where I was actually able to go outside and photograph something.

I’m trying to remain hopeful that there will be more bright spots in all of our lives next year. You know, more good than bad. Personally, I want to continue to travel and photograph as much as I possibly can. As long as I’m able to create some meaningful work I’ll be content. I guess that’s all anyone can ask for right now?

Until next time, stay safe!


Around Nevada Part 1

Since it’s finally the end of this crazy year, I thought I’d share some random snapshots from my latest trip in and around Nevada.

There’s nothing more fun and relaxing to me as a photographer than taking road trips, exploring, and enjoying all of the interesting sights along the way. Being able to photograph all of my experiences are a true bonus! It brings so much joy into my life.

In troubling times like these, having a hobby or passion is of the utmost importance. I’m so incredibly grateful to be able to document all of my life’s many journeys. Sharing these moments with family and friends makes the journey even more special.


StarChild

Beautiful star-child, with a glow so bright

You illuminate the day, as well as you do the night 

Confusing to most humans, you’re a complex sight

For you may be dark, but you are also the light


Happy Birthday Queen!!!

Wishing Queen Terri a very Happy Birthday with all my love!!!


Year 20

Happy 20th photography anniversary to me!

This is a major milestone for me. One that so many people like me are never able to fully realize. This is the exact reason it’s so special to me, simply because I know how extremely difficult it is to achieve. I’m deeply thankful for this amazing blessing! It absolutely would NOT be possible without the love and support of my immediate family, and I MUST acknowledge them for all they do for me.

Starting out I never thought that this journey would ever come this far. All the doubt, practice, failing, struggles, rejection, negativity, money, hard work…yet, here I stand. I’m just as excited now as I was the first time I picked up a camera and decided to document my life. It’s been a long, hard, road but, I’m still going strong. I still find the motivation to get up and do it everyday because, I honestly just love it so much!

I get so much joy and fulfillment out of freezing all of the interesting moments I encounter. Persevering all of the memories I create in my life, and in the life of others. After all, life is all about experiences, and being able to document each one is a beautiful responsibility. It is sincerely an honor and a privilege. Even at this stage of my career, I’m still a proud student of the game. Still learning and growing everyday. Still willing to do the work even when there’s no reward. It’s truly not about the destination for me, but rather the journey.

My goals now are the same as they’ve always been…to have fun, and to build a collection of work that I can be satisfied with. Work that my family and I could be proud of. I am my own harshest critic, but I finally feel that I’m on the right track to accomplish everything I set out to do. As long as I’m able, I will continue to believe in and challenge myself to pursue all of my dreams!

I hope that my influence can serve as a positive example to my children and to all the artists that come after me. You can do what you love, and you can love what you do! I’m living proof. I was just a kid from a really rough city trying to do something that most people felt I couldn’t do or didn’t care about. Look at how many people worldwide that are trying to do the same things as me now. If it’s important to you, you can make it your reality. Never give up on yourself! Let love lead your intentions and never forget the element of enjoyment. You’ll be fine too 😉

Peace & Blessings.

RNJ

I’m my photographer too!


Goodbye Old Friend

Goodbye old friend. It’s terribly painful to see you go away. I will always miss you. 

The old friend that I’m referring to? My hometown’s local drive-in movie theater, the legendary Hilltop. 

Paying my respects during the first snowfall of winter, January, 2015. Photo by ©Antonio Orsborn copyright 2015. 

I can’t begin to express to you how many of my favorite childhood memories are deeply connected to this place. 

My first experience was going with my parents as a baby in the mid 70’s. Next, watching it evolve as a child throughout the 80’s. Eventually growing up and taking my own family in the 90’s. Sadly watching it struggle to stay open and relevant in the early 2000’s. Witnessing a small resurgence under new ownership, before ultimately seeing it go out of business for good. The rapid growth in popularity of digital media as well as mismanagement helped to seal it’s doomed fate. 

Seeing those doors closed and watching the property deteriorate over time broke my heart even back then. Now seeing it completely destroyed by misfortune breaks my heart in a seriously more profound way. Now I know it’s truly over. 

The city I grew up in wasn’t always nice. The family I grew up in wasn’t always happy. But, some of my most positive memories of fun and joy are directly tied into this location. This where my love of the movie going experience began. It’s also a bridge to my personal memories of a period in time long forgotten. A place where people would socially gather outdoors to enjoy a movie. It might be very difficult for modern people to fully understand how eventful this activity truly was without having been there during that specific time. We didn’t have a lot of money and we couldn’t really travel, so the drive-in represented the type of excitement a child would feel when visting their favorite amusement park. The drive-in was literally like my Disneyland. 

Just preparing to go was an event all unto itself. Looking through the newspaper to find out what was playing? And at what time? Getting dressed in the appropriate clothing based on the current season. The long drive there. Well, what I thought was the long drive there, since everything seems more grand when you’re a child. 

My youngest brother preparing to photograph a place that unfortunately he was never able to fully enjoy.

 I can remember everything about this place in vivid detail!

From the swings, slide, and merry-go-round that sat right underneath the screen for the children. Hell, even the mosquitoes! The strong smell of OFF bug repellent in the air. To the way the light from the projector would shine across the night sky with the stars sparkling in the distance. Each and every time was exciting for me. From getting there early sometimes to beat the traffic. To playing with random children before the sun set, letting you know it was time to head back to your car. To showing up at night while the lights from the marquee would glow, illuminating the surrounding pavement. The display of bold red letters, arranged by hand, describing what’s “Now Showing”.

The area directly underneath the movie screen where once upon a time various rides and toys were installed for kids to enjoy.

The familiar yellow and white marquee where every movie titled would be clearly displayed.

The long line of cars with their headlights shining, waiting to pull up to the brightly lit ticket booth. The friendly individual happily greeting you while handing you your tickets. Driving around until you find the perfect spot. Or maybe being too late and having to park further away from the screen towards the back. Rolling down the window, hanging the speaker inside. Followed by turning on the radio, trying to tune the dial to find the right station for a clear audio signal. Watching the intermission cartoons sing and dance, instructing you to be courteous to the others, while also recommending which snacks to purchase. To one of my favorite moments of all, walking to the concessions building. 

The boarded up remains of the old ticket booth.

Our drive-in had a large concessions building, much bigger than the average stand. When I was a child the building itself was painted bright orange and white. During operating hours the front and back doors would be wide open. The light from inside would pour out onto the gravel. People would be maneuvering in and out, balancing a variety of snacks in their hands. And the best part, the overwhelming smell of hot, freshly popped, buttered popcorn!

The concession “stand”. Clearly visible is the original orange bricks peeking from underneath the very last paint job.

I’m an old-school  movie goer and a diehard movie theater popcorn lover. I’ve been to tons of theaters, carnivals, fairs, plus popped my own corn at home for years. But, nothing can compare to the way the popcorn smelled at the Hilltop! It stands out as one the most instantly identifiable memories of my entire experience there. 

The smell grabbed you instantly! It grew stronger as you moved closer to the inside, making you hungrier with every step. And although there was plenty of other wonderful food being prepared, the popcorn was the star attraction. The aroma was truly undeniable. 

The inside was a child’s paradise! The assortment of candies neatly lined up behind the glass counter. All of a child’s favorite junk food items being prepared right before your eyes. The cheesy Tombstone pizzas. The flavorful ice cream sandwiches. The delicious nachos. The iconic Chicago style hot dogs. The old style lemonade & fruit punch fountains, with the colorful liquid dancing around inside the glass containers. Oh, and some of the absolute best hamburgers I’ve ever had! 

I even loved just wandering around on the inside. The food, the games, the people, the decor. All of it made me happy to be there. Getting somewhat of a behind the scenes look at the huge projectors transporting our movies outdoors through a beam of light. I thought it was both fascinating and magical! 

The fuse boxes which controlled many of the outside lights, located on the ground level inside the actual screen.

Over time watching the mostly mechanical 1970’s pinball machines evolve into the 1980’s electronic video arcade games. Seeing the large crowd of people gathered around the new technology of Space Invaders, then Pac-Man & Donkey Kong. I can’t count how much money I wasted in those machines, but it was worth every penny! 

Running into both friends and family randomly was always another exciting surprise. Living in a small town means you’re more than likely to run into someone you know quite frequently. Especially in those places where large crowds gather seeking to enjoy themselves. 

Honestly, walking back to your car with your food was even an adventure. Trying to find your way in the dark while not spilling or dropping anything…classic. 

Let me just reminisce a little deeper for a moment…

I’m thinking about how we’d always go no matter what. Despite all of the completely different Midwestern weather conditions. The heat. Being rained out. The cold winds. It didn’t really matter. We always seemed to have a good time, even when the movies were no good. Sometimes we’d sit on the hood of the car, or my Dad would park in reverse so we could sit on the trunk. Taking blankets and pillows for extra comfort. Meeting new, friendly, people. For instance, very often someone with a truck would allow us to sit in the back of the flatbed, providing another playful viewing position. Even my earliest memories of being a small child and sitting on the roof of my Father’s car. Can you imagine how much fun that was?

We use to bring our own foldable chairs to sit outside, and sometimes we brought our own cooler. We even barbecued many times on site before and during the movie. You can’t do that inside a regular theater!  

I mean, where else could you have the choice to see two brand new movies, two awful horror movies, or two goofy B-movies for the price of one? It was seriously a better value when directly compared to my other love, the standard sit-in movie theater. Not to mention the freedom and privacy it provided you with. It was great! And it was definitely an extra special treat to go on a random school night! 

Being able to go back to school and tell your friends all about what you saw. Especially if it was R-rated or nudity involved! Or sometimes simply falling asleep in the backseat before the movie ended. Only to wake up with just enough time to ask, “what’d I miss?” 

It was always bitter sweet staring out the window as the credits rolled. Slowly drifting along as my parents tried to beat the traffic to the exit. Not wanting it to be over, but looking forward to the next trip. 

Then becoming a young man, driving your own car, going on dates. The many make out sessions with any young lady you were trying to impress at the moment. Finally, maturing and taking your own children in hopes that they’d have an appreciation for your nostalgia. Being able to bond over this retro form of entertainment in a modern setting. Man, what an awesome experience!!! 

The rusted old speaker poles. Each of the many parking spots were equipped with 2 speakers on each pole. The exposed wiring is all that now remains.

In light of our recent COVID crisis, there has been an unlikely rebirth of drive-in movie theaters worldwide. A whole new audience is now being introduced to their parents or grandparents “old fashioned” way of viewing films. For this very reason, I had high hopes that the Hilltop would somehow be revived. For years I would tell anyone who would listen that the Hilltop is and should be a historic landmark for our city! It should never be disregarded or torn down! Now the worst has happened…Weakened by years of neglect and abuse, this seemingly indestructible brick construction is abruptly destroyed by a powerful summer storm?! I’m stunned!!! 

The wood, brick, and metal which formed the foundation of the structure, had begun to deteriorate years ago.

For the official news report click the link below:

https://patch.com/illinois/joliet/joliets-hill-top-drive-theater-toppled-storm

Selfishly, I never wanted this special place to go away. Specifically in such a disgraceful fashion. I often hoped that someone with the money and the proper vision would see the value in renovating the property for the future. I thought that maybe some local saviour would come along, willing to invest into the community, but it never materialized. Such a shame because, I always looked forward to riding by to catch a glance, or stopping by to take a few pictures whenever I would visit. It was always one of the highlights of my trip. Even when it was strangely converted into a makeshift soccer field. Even throughout the years when it was abandoned and vandalized. I hated seeing it that way, but I could always count on physically seeing the buildings and taking a moment to reminisce. 

As the building became abandoned, both the inside and outside would be vandalized with colorful graffiti.

I don’t know what the owner of the property or the city is planning to do with the land? Maybe they’ll rebuild it? Although I highly doubt it. Maybe they’ll clear it all out? Effectively erasing the entire history of this once thriving landscape. No matter what they choose to do, I know that whenever I visit my only option will be to recollect on what use to be. Even if they totally rebuild the site exactly the way it once was, I’ll always know that the original, this important symbol of my childhood, is now gone forever! 

So, goodbye my dear friend! Thank you for the countless thrills, excitement, and memories. I will forever reflect upon you with happiness and great fondness. I will continue to tell your story, and I will absolutely never forget you! You will forever represent a much simpler time in my life, as well as the world in general. You were quirky. You were unique. You were romantic. You were the best! 

A shell of it’s former self. The back of the building that served as the massive viewing screen. So many generations enjoyed countless movies here. So much history behind these weathered bricks.

Saying my final goodbyes. The joy that you brought into my life is immeasurable. I will cherish it always. Photo by: ©Antonio Orsborn copyright 2015.


Early Morning Color Palette

Very few things in life can compare to the beauty of an early morning sun rise. I wouldn’t consider myself a “morning person” by any means! But, I understand and appreciate the energizing power of a brand new day. The colors that come alive and start to envelop the surrounding environment is truly inspiring. It seems that they can only be matched by the soft, warm, glow of the setting sun. I always feel a sense of thankfulness whenever I’m up to both document and enjoy a wonderful sunrise.


Happy Birthday To Me!!!

Truly thankful to God for all of his many blessings.


Young Queen

Happy 21st birthday to my first born child, my young Queen. It’s so hard to process this much time passing by, and what was once my little baby has become a full grown woman! With every passing year I feel both happy and sad. I try to enjoy every moment with you because I know your next steps in life will move you away from me, and I’ll have to learn how to let you go…How did we come this far so fast?! Seems like you were just graduating high school, and now this! No matter what, you’ll always be my baby.

I love you with all my heart!!!


Happy Mother’s Day

I know it may not feel like a day for celebrating but, I’d like to say to all the mommies everywhere, Happy Mother’s Day!!! From me to you. With love, honor, respect, and appreciation ❤


Prints Now Available!!!

I know that times are extremely hard for everyone, especially financially. As someone who makes their living working as a photographer, I too have been challenged with finding alternative ways to earn income during this crisis. With that being said, for anyone who’s ever been interested in owning a beautiful copy of my work for their home or office, I’m happy to announce the launch of my first print store. Now you can choose from a variety of my work and purchase prints to be delivered right to your door. There are various sizes and framing options available. New photos which span my 20 year career will be added to my gallery regularly.

To check it out please visit me here: https://robertnjones.darkroom.tech


Uncle Doug

This literally feels like I’m living inside my worst nightmare!!!

How can YOU be gone?!

In my mind I keep telling myself that at some point I will sit down and give you the proper send off you deserve, but I don’t know how long it will take for me to realistically confront my emotions? It’s taken me weeks to come this far. You deserve so much better. I can’t right now…believe me, I’ve tried. This is beyond hard. I’m forcing myself to do this now because, I want the world to know how great of a loss this is to me. I am losing the very people who helped to make me who I am.

You were my Uncle but, you were also my big brother, a father figure, and one of the very best friend’s I’ll EVER have! There’s no words meaningful enough to describe how much I’ll miss you. I can’t believe I’m sitting here writing this!

I’ve lost many loved ones in my life but, this an even deeper level of pain that not even I thought I could reach. Yet, here I am.

I truly hope wherever you are that you’re at peace. For all of the joy that you brought to me and others, I’d say you definitely earned it.

Man, this literally feels like I’m living inside my worst nightmare!!!

 

I never wanted this to be my last photo of you…


Happy 19th Birthday Son!!!

I’d just like to wish my one and only son a very Happy Birthday today! I LOVE YOU Jr.!!!!